Exhaustion

I am tired. This weekend was relaxing in pretty much no way, and now it's the workweek again and oh, god.

There are boxes everywhere and while THINKING about how nice it will be when everything is put away and the boxes are gone is lovely, the idea of actually DOING everything required to make that happen is very daunting. The couch is set up, and we have a mattress to sleep on, and desks to work on... so really, is it so bad to spend our lives surrounded by boxes? At least there's room in this lovely house for all of them to sit around and still leave room for us to walk.

Our king size mattress arrived yesterday, and oh, the sleep that I had on it was glorious. I could spread out my elbows without stabbing Torsten in the back! I could sprawl semi-diagonally without pushing one or both of us to the edge of the bed! Oh, it was amazing. And I was so tired, I needed it.

And actually, I find it easier to wake up in this house, I think because it's so much sunnier. It's just so cheerful. And I am trying to focus on things like that, like the amazingness of the house and the beauty of the yard and oh, the windows and the kitchen and the basement and the garage and the lovely floors and the brand new washer and dryer that we got for a great price.

Because if I don't focus on that great stuff, then I start thinking about all the nitpicky little things that we need to deal with. Not just the big stuff like, um, replacing the siding? But like, a lot of the doors don't have doorstops, and a couple of the bathrooms don't have towel racks, and we can't just put them up because we don't know where the studs are, so we need to hire a handyman to install them, but first we need to buy them.

And a couple of the bathrooms also don't have toilet paper holders, so we went to Lowe's and bought the little stand holders, but we still need to put them together. And one of the bathrooms doesn't have a shower curtain rod, so we need to figure that situation out. But it hardly matters because our shower curtains are still hanging in the bathrooms at our old apartment.

And speaking of which, we brought over most of our dry food but we have yet to transfer the contents of our refrigerator, so we have basically nothing with which to make a reasonable meal in our house. But by the time we're done with work and walking the dog and maybe unpacking a bit and also dealing with a ton of logistical stuff like coordinating eight thousand deliveries, ordering firewood (oh and we still have to assemble the wood rack and preferably soon, because there's a cord of wood lying in our driveway right now), changing our address with everyone and their mom's boyfriend's dog, and running an errand (usually to Lowe's, because OMG they have everything we need, if only we could afford it all, but tonight I think we'll mix it up and go to Bed Bath & Beyond instead)... well, the planned trip to the apartment to haul a bunch of leftover stuff up and down the stairs is pretty much the least appealing thing either of us can envision.

And the grill we ordered arrived, but it has to be assembled, even though Lowe's would have done that for free, because if they had done it for free then it wouldn't have fit in our car and we would have had to pay $80 for them to deliver it, and that just didn't seem worth it. And we need to get some blinds for a couple of windows because the ones we have are basically worthless--they let 90% of the light through--so that will involve measuring and ordering and the spending of more money.

Do you see why I'm exhausted? And thinking about my to-do list is NOT helping me relax. So instead, we'll think about the CSA share we just purchased. The first box of produce arrives tomorrow.