Dress dress dress

OH HI. Remember that one time (okay, yesterday), when I was all like, WHERE IS MY WEDDING DRESS? Well, as it turned out, I got my answer the same day! I called the store on the suggestion of one of my commenters and was told that it had a ship date (from the manufacturer) of June 23, which meant it would probably arrive in the store a week or two after that. And I totally was NOT grumpy about that, and felt good about having an actual date.

But then, yesterday afternoon? My phone rang? And oh, it was nobody really, just the store, saying they thought I'd like to know that my dress came in that day! They have it in their hot little hands, just WAITING for me to come in and pick it up this weekend. After I try it on, of course. Because as some of you may remember, I haven't tried my dress on yet, because the sample in the store was too small for me. And I am SO. EXCITED. To finally get to wear my own wedding dress, the actual dress that I will wear on the day that I get married.

Bizarrely, though, I suddenly feel nervous. I mean, I haven't tried on my own dress. And I haven't seen the dress for months. So even though I KNOW that it will suit me, and I KNOW that it will fit, and I KNOW that it's the perfect dress, those things are all in my head, and my head is obviously not in charge of my nerves.

And also, this means that this weekend will be the first time that I will see myself looking more or less how I'm going to look on my actual wedding day. They say you cry when that happens. I cry sometimes, but not that often, and not usually over sentimental stuff. I am more likely to get goosebumps over sentimental things. I'll bring my camera, but I still haven't decided if I want to actually post pictures of me in the dress before the wedding. I'll have to decide after the fact.

Wow. I just can't get over the fact that my dress is really here! I know it's just a big white dress, but it makes the whole idea of the wedding day so REAL. Just thinking about wearing that dress makes me think about the moment when Torsten and I will see each other for the first time, and how amazing that will be. We're going to do it before the ceremony, in part because it saves time and prevents us from leaving our guests hanging for an hour. But also because those are going to be excited, nervous moments full of anticipation and happiness, and I can't imagine anyone I would rather spend that time with than Torsten.

We decided a long time ago that we wanted to see each other before the ceremony. From what I hear, the actual walk down the aisle can be kind of a blur, and I want to have time to take each other in beforehand, and experience this amazing day together. We'll have a private moment when we see each other for the first time, and I have no doubt that it will be beautiful, and also help keep me grounded for the rest of the day.

Recently, though, I'd been reading all these wedding blog posts about how glad people were that they waited until the ceremony to see each other, and how it was the best decision they'd ever made, etc. And I got so into that mindset that I started thinking that oh, maybe it was bad to sacrifice that moment just for the sake of practicality. And I forgot all about the other reasons, the sentimental reasons we had discussed, the wanting to share that time together.

And then S mentioned how seeing her husband before the ceremony was the best decision ever, and suddenly all of the reasons why we wanted to do that came flooding back, and now I'm really happy with our decision. And also, apparently very susceptible to the opinions of other bloggers. Who would have thought?

In other news... oh, wait. THERE IS NO OTHER NEWS. I can hardly sit still, I'm so excited about my dress. My only question is HOW AM I POSSIBLY GOING TO WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND? I'm just not quite sure I won't combust beforehand.