Thursday, August 21, 2008

Beauty rest

I think I hit my Olympics wall. I'm glad they're almost over, that my favorite events (swimming and gymnastics) are over. I can't watch any more. I'm too tired and everything has started sounding the same. The commentators irritate me to no end and I am thrilled at the idea of never having to hear their annoying voices again. But at least now I can get some sleep.

Last night there was a website that I really wanted to look at with Torsten, and its server was down so I couldn't. And seriously, I wanted to kill someone. I was so frustrated. The internet has spoiled me--I am all about the instant gratification. I was hugely irked that I could not have the discussion I wanted to have with Torsten because the thing I wanted to discuss was unavailable to me. I was so impatient that I kept refreshing the page, every five minutes, all night because I was just so convinced that if I wanted it bad enough, it would just fucking fix itself already. Needless to say, it didn't.

Torsten is really good at convincing people of things. He's honest, he's sincere, and he's trustworthy. That means he can sell anything. Except himself. He sucks at talking himself up, he sucks at touting his own virtues. In some cases, that's fine. Good for him for being modest and not feeling the need to talk about himself and how great he is all the time. But in other cases, he needs to stand up for himself and put other people in their place, and he's not always able to do that. I am able to do that. This is because I'm not as nice of a person as he is. Normally I appreciate his niceness. But yesterday he needed to sell himself, and he wouldn't, and it was driving me up the wall.

The point is, everything is putting me on edge. I'm not stressed; we are totally on the ball with the wedding planning and all the little problems that have been cropping up have been relatively easily resolved, at least so far. I'm not pregnant, and I'm not in a particularly hormonal part of my cycle. No, the only explanation for this illogical edginess is sleep deprivation. And the worst part is that it's self-inflicted. I haven't been busy working til late at night; I haven't been out with friends; I haven't been getting extra stuff done. I've been watching gymnastics or whatever other sport that NBC stubbornly refuses to air until eleven p.m. And my sleep is suffering.

These past couple of weeks have proven to me, quite conclusively, that eight hours of sleep is a bare minimum for me, and that nine is really preferable. Six hours is enough to make me homicidal. But at least I know the remedy. Feel like stabbing someone with a fork? Go to bed. Find your lip curling involuntarily whenever someone else talks? Go to bed. And so on.

So last night, I went to bed, nice and early. It wasn't enough to make up for my huge sleep deficit, but it was a start, and today I'm already feeling fresher. Just enough to be shocked at how foul my mood was last night just because of a lack of sleep. Perhaps I should reconsider this whole desire for a baby thing. Just kidding. I hope.

Does sleep deprivation affect you like this, or am I the only one?

40 comments:

  1. I feel your pain! I've been having sleep deprivation issues lately, and it is seriously driving me crazy. I've been up since 3:30 this morning, and awake well before that. I'm so on edge at this point I can barely function. There is only so much sleep deprivation a girl can take!

    Thank goodness I'm going out of town tomorrow for a quick trip to Portland. I'm thinking a change of scenery is just what I need. Well, a week or two on a tropical beach somewhere wouldn't hurt, but who am I kidding?!

    Here's hoping we both get back on track sleep-wise very soon!

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  2. me too! I've been staying up to watch the olympics non-stop and I'm kinda over it now. The triathlon was my last big interest. without sleep I am not a pleasant person. Everyone who knows me will inform me that they wont have this discussion or go to that place until I get some sleep. :)

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  3. Lack of sleep makes me want to stab people - seriously. This morning, Jason thought we could have morning s-x and when he saw I was in no mood at all, he got crabby, which pissed me off even further and then he proceeded to tell me how upset he was about it, meaning I listened to him whine about not getting morning s-x for 30 minutes. 30 minutes that I could have spent SLEEPING.

    I now want to punch random strangers in the face for no reason at all.

    I need at least 8 hours, if not more. And s-x in the mornings, when I'm exhausted and grouchy and feeling not at all desirable? NO.

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  4. I am totally, totally in the same boat right now. Although I have hormones to blame, they are definitely amplified by the lack of sleep. I've wanted to punch someone all week. :(

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  5. I think it should be legal to choke someone if you are sleep deprived. Only because that is what I feel like doing and sleep deprivation is my only excuse...

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  6. Are you kidding me? You are SSOOOO NOT the only one! I would love to sleep 9 hours a day and still have time to do everything else...

    There are definitely not enough hours in a day so a nine hour 'sleep' in uncommon for me. [And you!] I've been 'hitting the pillow' around 12-1 am lately and I have to wake up at 6:30-7! And I'm NOT a morning person!

    Sleep Well...

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  7. I woke up thinking about this very thing. I need sleep! Damn Olympics! I've decided I have to go to bed at 10 regardless and that's what the dvr is for because I can't stand myself on no sleep. I get edgy too and I'm out of it. Not a good combo at work.

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  8. I'm pretty much constantly sleep-deprived during the school year, so I guess at this point crankiness is just part of my personality.

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  9. Sleep is very important to my well being. Like, I NEED it. And 8 hours is barely enough. I get cranky, emotional, and very dramatic when I'm tired. I have started to recognize that being tired makes me those three things, but sometimes I still can't stop them from happening!

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  10. oh my god YES. sleep is usually the answer to all my woes, and sleep deprivation leads to not only crankiness and bitchiness, but actual sickness for me as well. i'm 200% more likely to get a sinus infection when i'm sleep deprived. it's absurd.

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  11. Sleep deprivation ABSOLUTELY affects me like that. I need AT LEAST 8 hours to feel great, though I can function reasonably well on 7, or even 6, if it is for ONLY ONE DAY. More than one consecutive day and I am grouchy and irritable.

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  12. D used to be like that. Less than 8 hours and he was terrible. After 3 years of up and down and sleepless nights, he's gotten used to it. So, there's some good news for you. Well, maybe not GOOD.

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  13. Sleep deprivation makes me weepycrankywhinybitchy.

    It's been a long time since I've had enough sleep.

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  14. Unfortunately, you will get used to a lack of sleep. The good thing about it is, you fall asleep INSTANTLY when you have a baby, and actually end up redefining bedtime as Anytime No One Is Screaming.

    Now that my kids are older, I find that, left alone (haha), I will sleep about seven to eight hours. I can do one night with almost no sleep, but after that, I start getting seriously drowsy.

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  15. I go batshitcrazy without enough sleep. Two kids you say? Mental institution I answer. Good times. Yeah, killer stuff. My shrink recommends nine for me and in my head I laugh and laugh and laugh with two kids 13 months apart, the oldest being 26 months. Hahahahaha! I'll get right on that...

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  16. I am the same way, and I'm glad to see that lots of other people are as well - sometimes I feel like the only one like this. I tend to majorly overract to what should be minor annoyances when I'm overly tired. Drop a hairbrush on the floor while getting dressed? THE WORST DAY EVER. No milk for the cereal? OMG HOW WILL I SURVIVE. Traffic on the commute to work? THE WORLD IS AGAINST ME. I need at least 8 hours, preferably 9, but very rarely get that much. ~LA

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  17. Sleep deprivation is a form of torture. It can really break a person. Good for you for going to bed early, just DVR those shows !

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  18. Ugh, I hear you. I am totally over the Olympics and I'm also now sleep deprived because of them! Just not enough time in the day for me to watch tv for four hours at night!
    When I get sleep deprived I not only get waaay overly emotional, but also super clumsy and forgetful. It's really crazy when it happens.

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  19. I am an awful person if I don't get enough sleep, or if I'm woken up.

    When I was an RA in college, my residents knew that the most important rule was to not wake me up! Unless they were dying or something, then they could wake me up. :)

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  20. At most, I get 4 or 5 hours of sleep per night. I can survive on less. I have to drop to 2 or 3 hours for multiple days before it gets to me. I am special!

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  21. Oh, boy. The Olympics might kill me. I am grumpy at work, and drag myself in late to the office. My morning cup of coffee isn't enough to wake me up anymore, and a second cup makes me jittery. I can't concentrate on my projects, and it is the time of year where I have no less than 14 DIFFERENT ITEMS at various print presses... I really need to pay attention!

    Dear God, let the amazing athletes GO HOME.

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  22. Sleep deprivation is the greatest cause of temporary insanity. Or at least it is to me. I almost went completely off the deep end when my first baby was born. It's amazing how you really can adjust though, when you don't have another choice. Now I can get by, at least temporarily, on very little sleep. I don't like it though.

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  23. No, you're not the only one and sadly, chronic deprivation seems to change me in ways that are worse...permanently. Nowadays I can no longer sleep in even if I TRY. It's pathetic.

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  24. *Ahem*

    No, sleep deprivation makes me look like the Wicked Witch of the West's evil twin.

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  25. I used to feel the same way but Im used to it now. And Astarte said it, you learn to fall asleep in no time after you have kids. Right now I have a 6 week old and 3 others and I feel the same as I always have even though Im averaging 6 hours/night with at least 3 wakings.

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  26. I get anxious and irritable, but not necessarily so irritable that I am threating to stab someone. I think.

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  27. Right there with ya, Jess.

    And Shauna - I have basically the same problem except my husband wants s_x at 11:00 at night! Which would be fine, except that I get up at 5:30am (and he can sleep until the kids wake up). So I totally understand.

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  28. I get a little cranky after going 24 hours with no sleep (my record is something crazy like 49 hours), but meh.

    I guess I could say I'm lucky...? Sometimes I need 5 hours of sleep, sometimes I need 12. The thing I hate the most is waking up to an alarm - I like to let my body rest and wake up naturally.

    One thing about having problems for years with insomnia is that it teaches (?) you how to function cheerfully on very very little sleep.

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  29. I am the same way. I must get at least 8 hours of sleep or I am not a fun person. I wish I could be one of those people that's fine on 5 or 6 hours of sleep, but I'm not.

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  30. Lack of sleep really screws with me too, and like you, mine is totally self inflicted. I think 8 hours is my bare minimum too.

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  31. I was so totally a 9-hours-a-night kind of person before my daughter! Now I am thrilled to get three consecutive hours at a time. And it's really not bad. I went from not being able to function without a full night's sleep to surviving and (actually) getting used to little snippets of snoozing... it can happen.

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  32. if i get fewer than 8 hours of sleep, i want to shoot someone. a normal person can get through a day feeling like that, but, i spend my day with six year olds. kind of a problem if you want to kill a bunch of kids. its not ok to be mean to them, while i feel just fine being nasty to grown ups.

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  33. Jess! You are soooo right. My sleep dev hit this morning after staying up to 1 am three nights in a row for the freaking Olympics. One of many things I lost my mind about today: being cranky I got detoured on the way home, due to a major and probably fatal car accident. What the hell is wrong with me? No compassion. I am now lying down on the couch but have bought a grande starbucks to jack myself up for the evening. Cycle to repeat! Ahhhhh.

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  34. I am totally sleep deprivation cranky. I've had relationships end based on my not being a morning person. And lately, I haven;t slept at all. So, I am not exactly the funnest person to be around. You are not alone. :)

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  35. I have been getting about 7 hours a night, which is nice, but 8 is much better. Then I don't yawn in work meetings!

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  36. Getting more sleep on weeknights was one of my New Year's resolutions. I think I have gone to bed earlier than usually a whopping three times since then. Clearly this resolution is going well.

    Last night, though, I went to bed a FULL HOUR EARLIER than usual. And guess what? I was still dead tired when my alarm went off. I think I am simply incapable of feeling well rested at 6:30 in the morning no matter what time I went to bed the night before. I will just never be a morning person. I should accept this.

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  37. I wish I could say that I'm getting sick of the Olympics.

    I'm absolutely crazy sleep deprived though. So much so that I don't believe I'm quite the same person as I was a few months ago.

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  38. Definitely lack of sleep affects mood. I find I get used to it when it's ongoing. But whether I mean "I get used to the lack of sleep" or whether I mean "I get used to being in a bad mood," I don't know.

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  39. I'm an 8-hour a night girl myself and everyone around me suffers if I don't get it!

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  40. Yeah once swimming ended I was kind of done with the Olympics too. But the closing ceremony was cool. Love the London said theirs will be "fun" but frugal. That should be good.

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