So tomorrow we're having our engagement photos taken, and last night I thought I'd try on a few outfits and take pictures of myself in them to see how they look on camera. And on the one hand, thank god I did, because every potential outfit I'd put together in my head looked terrible. Seriously, AWFUL. But on the other hand? Seeing yourself look terrible in a bunch of your favorite outfits? Not so good for the self-esteem.
By the end of the photo session, I'd scoured my closet about eighteen times looking for some mysterious perfect outfit to just present itself to me, and I was practically on the verge of tears from seeing so many hideous photos of myself one after another. Yes, I'm vain, I know, I have more important things to worry about, but by the end of the night I was convinced that we should cancel our photo session because I was going to look terrible in every single photo.
I mean yes, it was late at night, and I was tired, and the lighting sucked, and I wasn't wearing any makeup, and my hair was a mess, but the CLOTHES. And the BODY. By the time I was done I was sitting there thinking what a waste it was to lose all this damn weight, because I was so convinced of my own hideousness. Seriously, you know how Randy Jackson tells good American Idol contestants that they could sing the phone book? In other words, they can make anything sound good? Well, I'm the opposite--I can make anything look bad. Or at least that's how I felt last night.
This morning I had pulled myself together a bit, and narrowed it down to four more or less reasonable outfits. The photographer recommends casual dress, specifically jeans, and neutral tones, but I did try one bright colored top and one skirt, just to see. So, now I put it to you for a vote.
So, which one should I wear? And please, any cruel lurkers out there, please don't choose today to de-lurk and tell me that it doesn't matter because I make everything look like a gunnysack anyway. I'm pretty sure my fragile self-esteem couldn't take it.