Um, you know what I realized? I suck. Seriously, that's what I realized.
Because yesterday? I won my third pay-it-forward contest. The first was from She Likes Purple back in January, and at the time I actually told Jennie to pass the prize on to someone else because it involved yummy baked goods best consumed by someone not on Weight Watchers, and also because I knew--I KNEW--that I would suck at the whole "pay-it-forward" idea. (Incidentally, I was RIGHT.)
Anyway, Jennie totally understood my dilemma and, presumably, gave the prize to someone much nicer than me, and I felt absolved of all guilt about not paying it forward.
And THEN. Also in January, I won ANOTHER contest over at Random Rantings. And you guys, Slynnro sent me the NICEST prize from World Market, it was so cute and thoughtful, and you know what? I totally suck because I meant to do a whole post about the great prize, complete with pictures, but it arrived the day I was leaving to go wedding dress shopping in North Carolina, and I was distracted, and then it never happened. Not only did it never happen, but I totally DIDN'T EVEN THINK to email her and TELL HER I'd gotten her package. She actually had to SEND ME AN EMAIL asking if it had showed up. That's how much of a bad person I am. Clearly I do not deserve to be winning all these contests.
And also? At the time, I totally did not realize that it was a pay-it-forward contest. But I just went back and looked at the post again, and it totally WAS. AND ALSO? I just realized that the reason Slynnro HELD a pay-it-forward contest is because SHE won the pay-it-forward contest at She Likes Purple TOO.
It just goes to show, doesn't it? I give up a prize because I suck at paying it forward, but someone more worthy ALSO wins and pays it forward, and who do they pay it forward to? ME. And despite the fact that by that point, it was clearly inevitable that I was going to win a damn pay-it-forward prize eventually, I STILL dropped that ball.
GOD. I SUCK.
And NOW. I just won a THIRD contest over at And You Know What Else. My THIRD contest win this year. It's just too much. I cannot go on ignoring my good luck on the whole contest thing. I have to hold a contest of my own. I just have to. It's too much pressure otherwise.
So! Consider this a contest. Comment if you want me to send you something cool, and tell me about a contest in your life that you won, or even that you didn't win and really wish you had. Or maybe you're glad you didn't win because the prize was crappy? Or something? Fine, JUST TELL ME ABOUT A CONTEST. Any kind will do, apparently. I'll pick a random winner (so no pressure to make your comment particularly witty or charming) and send them something cool. I won't decide now what the something cool will be, because OBVIOUSLY it has to be tailored to the individual winner (read: I haven't thought far enough ahead to pick a prize at this point, because I am a LOSER).
Anyway! This is a contest! Time for you to enter! Go! But consider yourself warned: You WILL be expected to pay it forward. (Although APPARENTLY there is no punishment if you don't, except winning MORE CONTESTS.)
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