Eight months on Weight Watchers

I've been doing Weight Watchers for eight months now. And to be frank, it's getting a little dull.

It's still working. I lost almost four pounds last week. That's probably the thyroid hormone starting to work? If I lost four pounds every week I'd be thrilled. But I don't believe that I will. I guess check back in a month and see. But seriously? I doubt that will happen. I imagine I'll just keep on the way I am, losing 1-2 pounds almost every week.

And honestly? Consistency is boring.

For awhile I was traumatizing myself because I wanted to lose X amount of weight by the wedding. I was all freaking out whenever I didn't lose at least 8 pounds in a month because that was my target plan. But then I realized that's insane. I started Weight Watchers before I got engaged. I did it because I wanted to be healthy. I was trying not to focus on weight and numbers, but instead on health.

But it becomes so easy to be consumed by the scale. And the scale helps. It keeps me honest, it helps me stay on track, and it reminds me of what great progress I'm making.

But setting stupid goals like I have to lose eight pounds each month until my wedding is just ridiculous. What happens if I don't? I'll be ugly? Everyone will laugh as I walk up the aisle because I'm over Maximum Respectable Bride Size? Nothing.

In fact, what I learned when I tried on wedding dresses is that I will feel beautiful on my wedding day even if I don't lose another pound between now and then. Seriously. I don't know if it's the love and the emotion or just the great cut of the dresses or what, but I will feel good. I know that.

And now that I've bought a dress that can be altered as much--or as little--as necessary, I'm not worried about fitting into it. It will fit me when it arrives. If I'm smaller by my wedding day, I'll get it taken in. It will be fine. It will fit. It will look good on me.

So no more obsession with reaching a target weight by the wedding. I don't care how long it takes. I will lose all my excess weight eventually. It doesn't matter how much of it is lost before the wedding and how much is lost after. It will happen. Because I want to be healthy. And so that's what I'm going to keep focusing on. Because that's what this has been about since the beginning.